What is this? A one year commemoration? An annual issue? WTF. Seriously.

Better get yourself straight. This is seriously pissing me off. This time I won't care as much.

I didn't even do anything!!!!!

Shit, I've got better things to do.

POTANGINA

I think I'm finally at peace with myself.:D After so long.

I used to hate the line "things happen for a reason," but then again there's truth to that.

Courage was all that I needed. The question has been finally asked...and I got an answer I didn't expect...but one that I wanted.

Acceptance.:D It rocks.

Onto the future! I'm happy now I can admit.:D





Now, to twitter or not to twitter? But I'll miss Petra's, Carina's and Jerica's posts!!!! :(

pretty cool two days so far...THURSDAY: woke up at 6am for thesis area at batasan hills for data collection till 1030. IT RAINED LIKED HELL.:| Practiced for recording from then on. Class at 12-6pm, recording from 7-830. RECORD TIME OF AN HOUR AND HALF FOR TWO SONGS! It usually takes me 2 hours for ONE song. Brilliant Steve. Brilliant. You've proven yourself.:D Whataday.

FRIDAY: Stayed up with Ian and Mikee till 5am at Mcdo, since his immersion got cancelled, waited for the rain to stop and counted DENGUE larvae from 2-430pm...GOT BITTEN BY A DENGUE MOSQUITO I THINK. Practiced Secret Society with Ana, Max, Rose, Cams.:) Yes I' helping build up the Secret Society community in Ateneo! haha. then HP at 730.:D Bring it on. Haha.

Today is: class, Band Auditions, Wedding Reception and TNT Pre-Party Party/overnight. I really won't sleep I think.

Sunday: Lasertag. Wohoo!!!!

Should I move to twitter so I can follow idols of mine and AMP? :|

You're better off without him, don't call him...
He's breaking your heart.
He's hanging with your best friend and you're waiting there,
It's tearing you apart.

He lied to you a thousand times,
When I was there he kept you waiting.

And I'm still here waiting there
To catch you if you fall.
I don't know why I care so much
When I shouldn't care at all.

Finally got the nerve to tell you
How much you mean to me you said that I was your best friend,
A real sweet guy, but that's all I'd ever be.

And I'm still here waiting there
To catch you if you fall.
I don't know why I care so much
When I shouldn't care at all.

Swear, this was a fun night of Pascalene, TWS and Pupil. What a great concert! Except for some of the badhu logsjo people around.:|

but most of all thank you abi for yer talk! good luck with it!:D

ok maybe I won't go to med school anymore

...to make that headbutt.

but of course, you must hide your intentions otherwise you will be countered.

know how weird it feels when someone you know is suddenly gone forever? you'll never hear that person's voice or laughter anymore.

yeah I've experienced this a few times, but not with a family member, not lately. Not with someone though I will admit I wasn't very very close to but was someone I would spend my vacations in the US with.

and i must say:

I don't know how to feel about it. Again I am confused. Should I just act as if she didn't really mean anything to my life and go on with things? Or should I show it and thus to everyone else that I'm sad. I don't know what's appropriate and it really gets me.

But then again the fact that this is bothering me means that she did mean something to me.

Before I went back to school she told me about her doctor back in the US, and that he reminded her of a grown up me, a doctor, taking good care of his patients. The voice, the tone, the look, the stature, as she told me.

Funny thing is though, at that time I was home, I was seriously doubting that in my mind. All I could do was smile at her and say thank you.

Maybe that's what struck me the most about her? Especially now I'm in my senior year and quite "aptly" on that crossroad of confusion of what's to happen to me in my future? But that's another story.

God help me.

Don't think I haven't noticed. I HAVE.

GROW UP...please

Jesus Christ we're in college...in fact almost through with it.

how does that song go again?..."you'll be sorry when I'm gone."

it's that throat feeling.

and once again I don't know the cause....

oh please just pass away quickly.:(

I wrote a song a few days ago. I think it sucks.:(

minha vida minha alma minha liberdade

all i wanna do.

:((

I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really can't sleep.

and it isn't funny coz i gotta leave in a few hours.

Needta let it out. Boo.

Yeap, he was right. Feels different. At first happy...but hours later I find myself waking up with a start.

it's that throat feeling. Here we go again.

Fuck this........................

So as of today boys and girls, I am officially a senior. today I have finished my last test for the school year and [we] finished printing our final thesis proposal. Check yer Aisis boys and girls....IT SAYS...YEAR 4. How time flies by...And I have one year left.:(

My how time flies by. Wasn't it just yesterday that I couldn't speak like Filipino or I was known as the ditcher? LOL

On another note. Tonight was :D :D :D :D :D :D :D. HAHA!

here we go...again. The cycle just keeps on going. it doesn't stop. when will it ever?

now i feel inadequacy abound. an inadequacy that will and shall always be there now and forever

why oh why

give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up x infinite





stupid

Can't life just be quiet for extended periods of time? Grrr.

No matter how comical, stupid, happy go lucky and geeky I can be (and mind you I think can be the epitome of these) it doesn't work out.

I want my life to be like: "Previously on Heroes..." Well, that kind of suspense and action. Hehe (POWERRRRSSSSS)

But...

Every time I wake up what is analogous to the situation is..."Previously on the OC..."

Don't mind the analogies. But they're creative don't you think? LOL

Yes, it's escapism from reality.

It's funny how when I need something, it does come, though not in the form I expected some of the time.
Maybe it's luck? Well I dunno:



Amends.

Let us make them.

Let me...apply some elbow grease here and there.

No, you say? But I've already done it!

Isn't this how you wanted it?

Oh...Alright.

Let us turn love to hate.

Problem solved.




Thank you.

I must say last week was like the best week so far in my whole college life.:D

Imagine this:

Not for a single moment was it stressful and such. When I was late (the very few times I was) I wasn't even marked! Not even by Mariano (and my fail LT from him wasn't even returned so my week didn't get ruined by that either!)

Everyday, something good happened to me for some reason. The load was light, and it just kept going smoothly.

I'v also learned a hell lot of things, I swear. Things I may as well carry with me for the rest of my life.:D

But I must admit I was hella busy, going home late and the sort, but in the end it was all worth it!

All that hardwork only brought much FRUITION!

And not to mention...THAT LAST DAY of the WEEK......well, WAS THE BEST.:D Getting past all that nervousness, jitters and butterflies wasn't a waste!:D

...especially that last day.:) I feel totally empowered. lol

TAENA MAY ALBUM NA ANG ABS COMBO! ETO NA!!! YUN YON EH!!!

Lahat imbitado sa album launch ng BALARA, BALARA featuring 11 original tracks wuhoo! Sa Friday, February 20 sa 6 Underground, Pearl Drive, Ortigas! with performances by Fuzz, Verbacoma, and Arigato, Hato! Gates open at 9pm. p200 pesos gets you in WITH AN ALBUM! (at beer / drink) p100 kung entrance lang! (at beer / drink) Kung di niyo pa kami naririnig pakinggan niyo kami dito sa http://www.myspace.com/abscombo! thank you! -akim, ino, mikko, marts

It's that time of year...

Oh shit.

Make or break. Hold on to your seat.

Totally life changing.

No turning back. I've come this far.

It has to be dealt with.

In the end...it will be all worth it

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To all Ampers...Vote for me...AM Head.:))

Propaganda. Like I said. LOL