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steveeboi
21 May 2009 @ 11:06 pm
know how weird it feels when someone you know is suddenly gone forever? you'll never hear that person's voice or laughter anymore.

yeah I've experienced this a few times, but not with a family member, not lately. Not with someone though I will admit I wasn't very very close to but was someone I would spend my vacations in the US with.

and i must say:

I don't know how to feel about it. Again I am confused. Should I just act as if she didn't really mean anything to my life and go on with things? Or should I show it and thus to everyone else that I'm sad. I don't know what's appropriate and it really gets me.

But then again the fact that this is bothering me means that she did mean something to me.

Before I went back to school she told me about her doctor back in the US, and that he reminded her of a grown up me, a doctor, taking good care of his patients. The voice, the tone, the look, the stature, as she told me.

Funny thing is though, at that time I was home, I was seriously doubting that in my mind. All I could do was smile at her and say thank you.

Maybe that's what struck me the most about her? Especially now I'm in my senior year and quite "aptly" on that crossroad of confusion of what's to happen to me in my future? But that's another story.

God help me.
 
 
I feel...: sadsad
 
 
steveeboi
19 May 2009 @ 08:20 pm
HMM  
Don't think I haven't noticed. I HAVE.

GROW UP...please

Jesus Christ we're in college...in fact almost through with it.

how does that song go again?..."you'll be sorry when I'm gone."
 
 
I feel...: sadsad
 
 
steveeboi
10 May 2009 @ 11:24 pm
it's that throat feeling.

and once again I don't know the cause....

oh please just pass away quickly.:(

I wrote a song a few days ago. I think it sucks.:(

minha vida minha alma minha liberdade

all i wanna do.

:((
 
 
I feel...: sadsad
 
 
steveeboi
19 April 2009 @ 02:45 am
I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really can't sleep.

and it isn't funny coz i gotta leave in a few hours.

Needta let it out. Boo.

Yeap, he was right. Feels different. At first happy...but hours later I find myself waking up with a start.

it's that throat feeling. Here we go again.

Fuck this........................
 
 
I feel...: gloomygloomy
 
 
steveeboi
27 March 2009 @ 01:13 pm
So as of today boys and girls, I am officially a senior. today I have finished my last test for the school year and [we] finished printing our final thesis proposal. Check yer Aisis boys and girls....IT SAYS...YEAR 4. How time flies by...And I have one year left.:(

My how time flies by. Wasn't it just yesterday that I couldn't speak like Filipino or I was known as the ditcher? LOL

On another note. Tonight was :D :D :D :D :D :D :D. HAHA!

 
 
 
steveeboi
09 March 2009 @ 10:00 pm
here we go...again. The cycle just keeps on going. it doesn't stop. when will it ever?

now i feel inadequacy abound. an inadequacy that will and shall always be there now and forever

why oh why

give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up give up x infinite





stupid
 
 
I feel...: crushedcrushed
 
 
steveeboi
04 March 2009 @ 07:23 am
Can't life just be quiet for extended periods of time? Grrr.

No matter how comical, stupid, happy go lucky and geeky I can be (and mind you I think can be the epitome of these) it doesn't work out.

I want my life to be like: "Previously on Heroes..." Well, that kind of suspense and action. Hehe (POWERRRRSSSSS)

But...

Every time I wake up what is analogous to the situation is..."Previously on the OC..."

Don't mind the analogies. But they're creative don't you think? LOL

Yes, it's escapism from reality.
 
 
I feel...: blankblank
 
 
steveeboi
03 March 2009 @ 12:18 am
It's funny how when I need something, it does come, though not in the form I expected some of the time.
Maybe it's luck? Well I dunno:



Amends.

Let us make them.

Let me...apply some elbow grease here and there.

No, you say? But I've already done it!

Isn't this how you wanted it?

Oh...Alright.

Let us turn love to hate.

Problem solved.




Thank you.
 
 
I feel...: angryangry
 
 
steveeboi
19 February 2009 @ 07:30 am
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steveeboi
16 February 2009 @ 06:22 am
I must say last week was like the best week so far in my whole college life.:D

Imagine this:

Not for a single moment was it stressful and such. When I was late (the very few times I was) I wasn't even marked! Not even by Mariano (and my fail LT from him wasn't even returned so my week didn't get ruined by that either!)

Everyday, something good happened to me for some reason. The load was light, and it just kept going smoothly.

I'v also learned a hell lot of things, I swear. Things I may as well carry with me for the rest of my life.:D

But I must admit I was hella busy, going home late and the sort, but in the end it was all worth it!

All that hardwork only brought much FRUITION!

And not to mention...THAT LAST DAY of the WEEK......well, WAS THE BEST.:D Getting past all that nervousness, jitters and butterflies wasn't a waste!:D

...especially that last day.:) I feel totally empowered. lol